20 years

it is 20 years already..

ap yg aku dh capai slame 20 tahun ni???

ap kebahagiaan yg aku dh kecap slama tempoh 20 tahun ni???

BLANK!!!!

EMPTY!!!

NOTHING!!!

I dont feel good at all..

sedih, sakit hati, sunyi..

nobody cares

nobody listens

only ME!!!

alone in this big family..

brothers n sisters have their own life..

parents are tired of raising their youngest daughter..

i dont have friend..

i dont have beau too..

only mumu left..

day and night..

i'm a prisoner of my home..

i lost my childhood..

now my teenage life seems far far away..

i dont have any happy moment in my life..

i'm sick of this life..

should i try again?

who cares anyway..

tp aku tau ak xnk ulang itu lg..

tp xde org kisah..

ade bros ade sis tp ade ke yg nk spend mse??

sume busy..

ad life sndri..

n time dorg study x susah..

ble time aku je ssh..

hutang bertimbun2..

br bt dip..org laen dh dgree..

ak still remember, sis dlu pg balik kl-trganu dgn flight..

sronoknye die..

dan die kte ble aku study nti aku pn blh naik flight..

tp tgk la, ade ke aku naik flight????

nk ble tket bus pn ssh...

dan die blaja dlu parents tanggung tp aku???

PTPTN sepenuhnye..

BAGUSNYE jd anak bongsu...

dan skg org laen dh keje, ad life sndri..

n tgh sbuk nk mencri calon..

sngnye life org laen...

ble call blh plak cite mcm2 yg menarik..

sdgkn aku kt umh menjeruk rase..

jd penjaga rumah yg setia..

dan hancurnye hati ble parents sndri kte dorg dh tired nk membesarkn ank2..

time for grandchildren plak..

ap yg parents salu sebut msti la ank2 ksygn dorg..

SRONOKNYE hidup =)

i agree with trisy..

PARENTS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE BABIES IF THEY ARE NOT TO LOVE THEM!!!

selesai membaca rooftop rant

at last, dh brjaya slesaikn pembacaan rooftop rant..
novel karya hlovate yg dh lame aku tnggu utk dbukukan..
skg menanti versus plak, yg aku sndri pn x tau ble nk d publish..

rooftop rant =)
aku suke cite ni, menarik..
tp agk hmpa jgk sbb bab trisy jumpe blik dgn jade sikit je, pastu dh d end..
mcm nk tau byk lg je kisah dorg..
tp btolkn, bkn penulis blh puaskn hati sume pembaca..
ap2 pn aku sgt minat dgn karya hlovate..

aku akn mnanti dgn setia karya seterusnya dr hlovate, i hope it is versus =)
nice story

new books

today,is my rest day.

mood xbp elok, xblh smbung tdo lps subuh, mak ajk pg bndr..

ak malas

nk tdo

nk rehat

letih sgt2

tp aku kne pg jgk, tpkse..

jd ble pg bndr, aku lps geram dgn bli mcm2 buku..

aku mmg xsyg duit, ble dgn buku..

aku ulat buku??

hahaha...

itu yg chef kimi kata

tp aku biasa2 aja..

tp ak ble bace sesuatu msti khusyuk, mendalami, menghayati..

agk psycho jgk la aku ni..

smpi umh dr bndr dlm kul 11.30..

aku ngtk..

mkn nasi pastu trtdo..

mmg ptt aku mkin gmukkkk..

trjge kul 1315..

bgn, mandi solat..

pastu ngtk lg, plan nk tdo..

ngtk tp x lena.

akhirnye, aku start bce novel..

tp ak agk hmpa sbb sehari hari cuti, aku xdpt tdo n rehat sepuasnye..

esk keje kul 7am-3pm..

kul 6.20am dh kne brtolak dr umh..

huhuhu..

kne bgn awl..

busan2 =(

dh byk hari x write something here..
penat, letih, sakit badan, sakit jiwa, sakit hati..sume ade..

yg bt aku jd miserable sgt ni adalah REPORT!!!!
dh ade aura kepale nk pecah..huhuhu..
knp aku pk sgt tntg ni??
aku pn heran..
org laen x pk sgt pn, tp ak msti nk jgk serabutkn otak..
aiyooo,sshnye ble jd dri aku..

kdg2 aku xnk jd dri aku..
nothing is good about me.

yg aku tau:

1.makan
2.tdo
3.bce novel
4.peluk mumu
5.berangan

yg pmpn laen tau tp aku x tau :

1.masak
2.menjahit
3.lipat baju
4.kemas umah
5.bersopan santun
6.lemah gemalai

aku ni seorang yg comot..
fussy but not a perfectionist..

i'm a perfectionist in my own way..

aku x suke tgk mnde tu sume same, msti nk laen2..
sbb bg aku yg aneh2 itu,

menarik

unik

tersendiri

hurmmm..

ble la akak2 aku nk blik ni,busan busan..

Butterscotch dream

it was yesterday evening..

such a sunny evening, i had a dream..

i dont know why i was dreaming about the gardenia butterscotch bread.

hurrrmmm..

i drove alone to nabeel's shop to buy it, but it was already sold out..

i was really disappointed for not having a chance to eat it..

then i woke up..

it was a butterscotch dream..

till this moment i'm thinking of eat, the butterscotch bread..

to kak jaja n nae, i would like to tell you both that i've learned how to make the butterscotch sauce, the other trainee had a taste of it..
she said, it was yummy..

what to do, i always think about food..

they always visit me in my dream...

alas.. pity me..

they only come in my dream T-T

love love love

lots of love..

i wish i could have all these hearts..
so that i can love all the people that i would love to..
hehehe...































strawberry mousse =)

assalamualaikum..

this is my first time writing in a blog.
sorry for my language error, whether malay or english i am not good in both.
keep trying to improve my language..
i would like to write in malay and english language..
hahaha..

hurrmmm...
i decided to write about the journey of my life..
past,present and my planning for the future..
what i've gone through, what i've dont..
everything that i would like to share with the readers.
honestly, i really want to know what others think about me and how they will describe me if someone ask about a girl named fadzi..
to the readers, please feel free to write a comment on this blog =)
thank you =')